Before OM I was confused about what I wanted in relationship. I had been married for 10 years, had a live-in boyfriend for 7 years, and then I was single for a year. I knew I didn't want the life I had, but I didn't know what I really wanted.

I first read about OM in a spiritual magazine. When Matt and I broke up, it was the last straw; I was so desperate to figure out how to have a successful relationship, I was willing to try anything. I traveled from Vermont to NYC and went to my first TurnON. These OMers had something I wanted. They had a passion about their work, a glow of joy, and a community closeness between them that I craved. I knew right then that I wanted to take the Coaching Program, because then I could have what these people had.

I came back to VT and told Matt that there was hope. I had met an amazing group of people who OMed and they seemed to be figuring out deep relationship. Matt and I started OMing every day, and our relationship took on a depth and level of connection I'd never had before. We started telling each other all the little things we had been too embarrassed or scared to say. We kept blowing each others minds with love and vulnerability. Halfway through the Coaching Program, he joined too. It was the best thing I had ever done in my life.

Graduation day of the Coaching Program was my birthday. Matt got me on stage and proposed. I had sworn I would never get married again, but OM gave me a new definition of relationship and marriage that was actually what I deeply wanted and found incredibly nourishing. We got married in May.

OM has brought me more joy, connection, personal growth and a feeling of aliveness than I have ever felt in my life. I actually feel full in my sex, my partnership, and my career. For the first time in my life, I know what I want, and I know I can have it.