My Daemon Awakens

by Nancy Coleman  Jul 22, 2016
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It's almost four years now since I began practicing Orgasmic Meditation (OM). Before OM, I lived isolated and suppressed. My OM practice opened me to make a major admission -- that I had a hunger for connected, deep, conscious, regular sex.

As I started to open my sex, a pocket of a force inside me opened. I didn't have any control of it. A rumbling in my gut, this feeling of being taken past the edge of my comfort zone where I would feel a point-of-no-return. I can't say 'no' anymore. It's where my 'yes' lives yet I feel a shudder run up my spine. I feel a pushing force, an urgency. I could feel that as long as I kept my sex in check, this force was in check. I realize I'm experiencing my Daemon.

James Hillman defines the Daemon as follows - "The soul of each of us is given a unique Daemon before we are born and it has selected an image or a pattern that we live on earth. This soul-companion, the Daemon, guides us here. In the process of arrival, however, we forget all that took place and believe we come empty into this world. The Daemon is the carrier of our destiny."

This is another definition of the Daemon - The Daemon works in many motivates, protects, invents and persists with stubborn fidelity. It resists compromising reasonableness and often forces deviance and oddity upon its keeper, especially when it is neglected or opposed. It offers comfort and can pull you into its shell. As my Daemon out of hiding, this what I hear:

"It's time to wake-up! Wake-up! It's time! No more self-protection. It's time to open your sex, your power, your expression. It's a fierce path and I'm asking for all of you; I will dissolve everything that is not you. I have heard your yes to open. There's no turning back."

"I yearn with passion inside you like a fiery furnace; it makes me cry out-of-control and makes me laugh at the wrong times. I have to take you, relentlessly. You will take the risk. You may try to open then close but you will stay open. Your conditioning is unbearable. Stop gripping and arguing with me when I ask you to speak. Your life depends on it. Keep going. You said you'd do whatever it takes to get free! Do it! Open!"

"You will live without apology. Feel the vulnerability your sex shows you. Feel his conditioning and how it hits you, alchemize it and send it back as love. I'm in charge. Come to me and I will help you find your way out. I ask you to hurry as I’ve been waiting and insist you express the unfiltered most charged admission you’ve ever had to make then you will finally and fully fall in love with yourself."

What was fighting to get out was LOVE.

My daily practice of OM has changed me more than any single thing. It is the foundation of my life and makes all of what I desire possible.