OM Report #12: Following Desire by Justine

by OneTaste Living Library  Jan 4, 2012

I’ve been craving pancakes for 4 weeks - since Thanksgiving exactly. I remember waking up that morning with their taste on my tongue and spending an hour wandering the neighborhood looking for an open restaurant. I ended up eating cereal. The next weekend, I became aware that the voice of pancakes was still calling to me. I walked to the diner next door, but was somehow convinced to try the breakfast sandwich. It was pretty good, but it wasn’t pancakes.nnThere are many truths about desire and one we should all know is that it can’t be ordered down. If desire calls for pancakes, english muffins won’t do. They may satiate a surface hunger, but underneath desire will continue to call.nnYou might think this is trivial, but stop for a moment and consider all the ways you’ve attempted to order down in the past month. You may have called it “settling” or “making do”, but ultimately there was a call in you that went unanswered. It might have been for something inconsequential like pancakes, or more significant like an honest relationship.nnWe’ve all experienced that tender voice inside that whispers (or shouts) “I want him to touch me more gently” or “I wish I could speak up about this”; the one we shut down before the words get out.nnRegardless of its object, desire exists to move us, and so often we refuse to budge.nnThis week, try something different. When you feel a desire, however small, allow yourself to follow it in its first generation, upon its first impulse. Don’t wait, don’t negotiate. If you learn to do this with small things like breakfast, you’ll pave the way for bigger desires to come through.nnThis morning I made pancakes. They were delicious. And they fed something more than my hunger.nnJustine’s Pancake Recipen2 c Flourn1tsp Baking Sodan2 Tbl Sugarn2 Eggsn2c Buttermilkn2 Tbl OilnnBlend together all the dry ingredients in one bowl and wet ingredients in another. Make a well in the middle of the dry ingredients and pour the wet ones in. Stir until smooth. Using a ladle, pour batter onto the griddle. When bubbles rise to the surface of the batter, turn. Serve when golden. xo