The Whisper

by admin  Apr 17, 2012
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By Amy J
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I grew up in a deeply religious home in a practical, down to earth, sensible midwestern farm town. Religion and spirituality were ingrained into me from as early as I can remember. I tried to be a very good girl growing up, knowing that something inside of me had a spiritual calling. Eventually at some unmarked juncture, I dropped the religion off in college. And yet, I still searched, I didn't want to give up on the belief that this whisper, that calling that lived inside of me, had a map located somewhere. I moved across the country in search of this map and its accompanying territory (and simultaneously wondered if I was a headcase for believing such a thing existed). I kept hoping though, hoping I would turn over a rock that would give me the answers I sought. I just didn't expect to find them in sexuality and orgasm. I had looked in all sorts of places: self help books, buddhism, feminism, the secret, lesbianism, energy work. I found amazing pieces in each of these places, but always left with a yearning, something unfulfilled and not quite satisfied. I chalked it up to me. Something was wrong with me. Clearly, I was a headcase for listening to that whisper. Amidst all this spiritual seeking, I was also lost and confused when it came to men and sex. I loved sex, I resented men. So when I heard about OneTaste, I thought 'Oh! maybe I can figure out this little problem there.' Still not expecting a spiritual path, I came to a lecture by OneTaste's founder, Nicole Daedone. I can't really remember anything she said, except this word she used that I didn't know, ennui. But given the story she told, I knew what she meant. I knew; she heard the same whisper I had. I couldn't put my finger on this thing, but she had figured out how to. (Literally). She had clearly found some answers that quenched that whisper, that pull, that spiritual sense I had felt for so long and never been able to name or find accord with. Don't get me wrong, this path is unlike any spiritual path I expected to find myself on, and the goodie two shoes, midwestern upbringing part of me tried hard to hold onto the conditioning, the appropriateness, the 'Oh I'll just have some orgasm AND my perfectly stitched up american dream thankyouverymuch.' But as orgasm will reveal, our conditioned ideas of how life should look is not the way orgasm (or lifeforce, spirit, god, the universe) always wants it to look. That conditioned, practical life is what keeps that whisper stifled, keeps us from navigating the territory the map points to.
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nnIn this territory, I get to look at the deep, dark depths of myself, to feel each painstaking, embarrassing, shameful, beautiful and tender thing that lives inside of me. To know the high highs of spiritual enlightenment as well as the hidden,renounced parts of being human, of being me. And by doing that for myself, I build the muscle to do it for another. And then, the most rich, pristine, satisfying intimacy is built. To see and be seen in the whole spectrum, from light filled spiritual being to hungry desperate human, we meet each other in each location and savor what is there to feel and experience. Rooted in our OM practice, we begin to learn this evasive map I'd been searching for. We learn one OM at a time, learning the nuances of orgasm, tracing the sensation in our bodies, seeing our desire, emotions, ideas and conditioning rise and fall until eventually all that is left is this orgasmic, meet -me- where- I'm- at intimacy that is the most spiritually nourishing, saturated sense that whisper inside could ever ask for. I am deeply grateful that whisper has found the map to its territory in orgasm.nn nnWe are all searching for something, something to fill that well of desire within us, something to answer that seemingly unanswerable question we continue to ask. There isn't just one answer...and there is. Nourishment. Deep, hydrating, pysical, emotional, spiritual nourishment. It comes from the fulfillment of desire. And by desire we don't necessarily mean, 'Ohhh I really want a chocolate cookie and a porshe and a pony!' We mean the deeper thing that wants to be fed- by real connection to ourselves, to our purpose, and to the people around us. OM is a practice that will help you touch that hunger, to express it, AND recieve the fulfillent of it when it comes your way. nn
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